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Buti pa sa (most) fairytales, hindi mo na kailangang mag-alinlangan at magdalawang-isip pa pag nakita mo si Prince Charming. Siya na ang right one. Wala nang iba. Siya na ang destined para sa’yo. Pero sa real world, ni hindi mo nga alam kung kaharap mo na siya, o naliligaw pa.

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Posted 8 months ago — 28 notes

THE ART OF LETTING GO

It’s over he’s gone..why do we have to part while the love is still there?why do we have to suffer?why do we have to cry when someone bids goodbye?..why do we have to meet..to lose in the end?

There are questions left unanswered..words left unsaid..letters left unread..song left unsung,love left unexpressed..promises left unfulfilled.

In a relationship,the hardest thing to do is saying goodbye and letting go..it is as hard as breaking a crystal glass..because you’ll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again,more often than that..they who go feel both the pain of parting,they who stay behind that suffer,because they are left with memories of love that was meant to be.

We are embarrassed to find ourselves alone,unfair as it may seem..but that’s the way love goes,that’s the drama..the bittersweet of life and the risk of falling in love.after all, nothing is constant but change..everything will eventually come to its end..without us knowing when, without us knowing how, without us knowing why..and we must forget,not because we want to..but because we have to.

In letting go, sorrows come not as a single spy..but in a batallion,it seems that everything you do, everywhere you go,every song you hear, every beat of your heart and every breath you take always remind you of him,it is like a stub of knife..a torture in the night,funny how the whole world become depopulated when only one person is missing.

I don’t know if it is worth calling an art, but letting go entails a special skill..sparkled with a considerable space and time,time heals all wounds..but takes a little push on our part..acceptance plays a part, not all wishes come true,not all love story ends with a fairy tale ending.. “AND THEY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER”..

Sometimes we have to part because of certain circumstances beyond our control..we have to suffer if it would mean happiness for others,we have to cry temporarily to let go of the pains..every beginning has its end,like every dawn has its dusk..it’s something we can’t control,something we have to live up.

It’s over he’s gone..but this life has to go on, I know there is no such thing as forever..but for me,there would be a place and time where questions will be answered,words will be spoken,letters will be read..songs will be sing in harmony,love will be found,and promises will be fulfilled.

When I love..I’m not expecting love in return,but a little consideration and understanding from the one I’d trusted so much..(T_T)’

Posted 12 months ago

hmmmm…

haven’t written for a long time… writer’s block i guess. SOMETHING kept telling to write something while i am hibernating in this state of “Time out”. yup! i call this bumming phase that (i am just giving it a little dignity i guess). i am sitting in front of the computer screen without having any idea what to write about. believe me i have tried more than once to post something.i seemed to ran out of words from the four years of trying to block any desire to write. the programming education really fucked me up big time man… it created fears. my reckless spontaneous self was smashed down by my cravings for an idea of a self that seem not too hardcore by the mediocre society, in short a self that fits in the cookie cutter world. never did i imagined it would turn out to be a huge mistake. but then again having a degree gives me all the excuse to do everything that i want to do in the first place….maybe the sacrifice is all worth it. i relate my experience in the analogy of bad relationship. i was in it for the wrong reasons. i was so obsessed by the idea that it will love me back, so i tried changing myself, reinventing just so i can have a single compliment, giving up little pieces of me until none is left for me. now that it is over…i am left with cynicism, self doubt, and bitterness. i have been out of my sanity in the past few months. i never felt more alone than any part of my life i can remember. my plans were all over the place. everyone thought i was going downhill with that attitude. what they don’t know is that it took all of that to pick up pieces of me that i have thrown out. i know now who i am and i am chasing after my dreams….

Posted 12 months ago

i do follow my heart

You’re romantic, sentimental, and emotional.
You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly.
Some may call you fickle, but you can’t help where your emotions take you.
You’ve definitely broken a few hearts, but you’re not a heartbreaker by nature.
Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Posted 12 months ago

a part of me you don’t see

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional.
You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it.
You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out.

Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren’t lovable.
Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that’s really there.
You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

Posted 12 months ago

learn a foreign language

For you, learning a language is about career advancement and communication.
Knowing Spanish will bring you tons of possibilities for jobs and travel. Bárbaro!

Posted 12 months ago

one dramatic night

Damn!Damn..Damn..Damn..last night was really a very dramatic night for me and for someone i really value.. I was like a stupid freak for making such decisions that was sooo non-sense.. as in non-sense talaga..I felt bad last night cause I started out the arguement and made him felt sOoo sad.. I was really such a jerk for doing such thing..

why have I done such things that would hurt someone and hurt myself..?? maybe I was just sooo insane last night..well„I think I just don’t want that person to be hurt anymore..for the fact that ,that person is already hurt, I had a decision to let go..and Go away..I thought of that thing cause I don’t ever wanna hurt him anymore and i want to stop his sadness..and I guess that’s the right thing to do..

But He doesn’t want me to go and I also don’t want to go..but I guess I have to but I really can’t…

but I really felt sOrry kasi naman..parang inaway ko siya..that’s why last night was really really the worst night ever in this month..

Last night was a misery night..I’m was such an eMo gurl last night fOr crying damn hard..I slept for only 2 hours..I was sooo bangag..and sooo exhausted…

I don’t want another night to come to have a scenario like this..it’s just sooo unusual and it’s not good to cry and cry all night long..

“Basta no matter what happens..I will still be there for you..If I go you know that your really still important to me..and no one can ever change that..I hope we are really OK ..”

“you know how much you mean to me and how much you rule my world..”

“you know who you are cause your important to me..”

Posted 12 months ago — 1 note